Absolute favorite

This is Not a Test - Courtney Summers

With an unforgettable voice, the author tells a story of monsters and of horror.


But in it, not all monsters are zombies and the cruelest acts can come from the people that should keep us safe.

I woke up and the last piece of my heart disappeared.
I opened my eyes and I felt it go.

When the will to live disappears, what will make someone keep on living?
Isn't "live just for live" another act of mindless conduct? Like a zombie without rational thoughts?

This is a story about surviving nightmares in a nightmarish situation.
Sloane _the main character _ has reached the end of the road. Victim of parental abuse, she has no one to which ask for help. Her older sister has run away six months ago, leaving her to face her monster of a father alone.
And even if she did have someone to which ask for help, it would just be too late. She grew up in it. She'll never be, just like everybody else...

What i liked more about this story:
The author doesn't hold back. Finally there's a story that REALLY shows, what growing up in such a sick environment will do to someone.
Physical scars may fade, but not the emotional ones. Those are inked forever into the soul.

This is the book main point. Yes, it may take place in a horror scenario, but for me, that was the simple background in which the story takes places. The set in which all the characters will perform...

A book of compulsive reading. So heartbreaking, that i'm sure will remain with me for a long time now....

Even so, through all the despair and bleakness, maybe the ending can been seen as hopeful:
If, even dead people who were turned into zombies can long for life, maybe....just maybe there's still a chance for salvation.

I don’t know if I will keep it, but just in this moment, however brief, I feel closer to it than I ever have before …